My mom told me tonight that they are not thinking Granny will make it to the end of August. The cancer is starting to really affect her brain, she's forgetting people and that kind of stuff.

Mom also told me that I should go shopping for an outfit to wear for her funeral. They're making the funeral arrangements Monday.

We were talking about her possessions and what maybe we wanted. I told my mom to PLEASE please please save her perfume/perfume bottles for me. When me and my sister were little we'd always play with them when we went over there, haha and she always yell at us to stop messin' with her things <3. It may be weird, but I really want them. And she collects angels and I want one of them.

It's happening so fast. I'm not ready.

Things are.....

Things have been rough lately. My aunt is fortunately out of the hospital and back home :). My uncle on the other hand, is still far from well. They thought he wasn't going to make it as a matter of fact. But, he has shown signs of improvement, moving, reacting to people talking to him, he cried, and even sort of talked to my aunt. All that is awesome, he still just has a long way to go....

My grandmother also has cancer. It started in her kidneys and she had a tumor in her neck. They, like my uncle, thought she had maybe 6 months to live. Thank God, the cancer doctor gave us a better prognosis, she has years. Still, she is fighting cancer, but we'll have her with us longer than was first thought. I got a tattoo on my wrist dedicated to her <3.

My aunt 'Bobbie' [that's her nickname] and my uncle Ronnie were in a motor cycle accident yesterday. My uncle lost his leg, and they're doing surgery on my aunt's leg right now, they're not sure if she's going to lose it or not. My mom said that someone died, but it wasn't them, I forgot who .

They were hit buy a 19 year old DRUNK DRIVER. Fucking drunk at 4:30pm yesterday and hit my fucking family. The worse thing is, that's not even his first DUI. I'm fucking disgusted. He could have killed them. Mother FUCKER.

www.wsoctv.com/news/16388255/detail.html

I'm so frickin' lazy. I need a shower, and it's 1:06am and I do NOT feel like getting up. I need to though cause I am going shopping with my mom tomorrow and I need to look clean and not gross. I took a nap earlier and so I know I will be up late!

Man, I got this new 500 dollar lens for my 20D and haven't been able to use it. And that make my heart sad. I know I will use it at the beach, but guh, that's in Juneee I want to use it now. I wish I could work with Angie again, but she's not modeling anymore :(

Blah, later.

Why do I do it to myself?

I watched a bunch of demon videos on youtube, stuff about hell and that stuff honestly scares me. I haven't been able to get good sleep in two nights. :(

Anyways, Lee and I are going swimming today, and it's going to be awesome. She has an underwater casing for her camera, maybe we will take some pictures? I don't know.

Welcome to yet another one of my blogs. This will be mainly for me to just rant when I'm bored, you know, that old story.